Sunday 15 May 2016

15/05/16

I've been feeling really awful all week, which is why I haven't posted.
I'm mainly completely exhausted and lacking a proper appetite.
I'm appreciating having the weekend because it means I don't have treatment and I get a bit of downtime.
I'm currently trying my hardest to psych myself up for this coming week but giving up is certainly never too far from my mind....

Monday 9 May 2016

Fraction One, Take Two

I'm back, having not blogged for a long time. I haven't blogged, mostly because I didn't know what to say any more and I haven't really accepted my diagnosis. That sounds ridiculous, not accepting something when I'm having all these procedures done to me but I don't feel real and I still don't quite believe my cancer diagnosis.
Anyway, I'm back tonight because after a lot of consideration and preparation, I'm restarting radiotherapy and I'm determined to get to the end of the seven weeks this time. So, take two...
Today's treatment went ok but I had to be in the mask for half an hour as they needed more images of my head. This is quite difficult for me because I'm claustrophobic. The heat outside made the radiotherapy department sweltering, and in turn, my head was boiling beneath the plastic mask! 
I don't feel much when I get the radiotherapy except a strange, metallic smell and taste when I get the beams to my head, and a slight heat when I get the beams to my spine (although I might have imagined that one).
I had a syringe driver put in this morning, which is a special machine that delivers anti-emetic medication subcutaneously, for 24 hours. I was also given 3 oral medications that should help with the sickness and nausea. 
We're now 2 hours since my first treatment, I've eaten and I've not been sick so I'm hoping that means that all of these medications are working!