When I first saw this on my feed, I initially felt the need to defend myself and thought it was a bit out of context to what I originally wrote but after thinking about it, it's not out of context at all. I couldn't cope with my treatment any more and that's the truth. I find the problem with the battle-cancer analogy is that it leaves those of us that didn't complete prescribed treatment, for whatever reason - taking on the perceived 'battle' - feeling like we failed, let our loved ones down, weren't strong enough and so on. In reality, we did our best, with what we had at the time. The treatment is sometimes devastating and for me, it is sad to bear the consequences of not having that treatment but I could do no more and that is the raw, and perhaps harsh truth of it. No one should cause you to feel guilty for doing what you could and being honest about that. @trekstock #trekstocknetwork#MelvinandMe #cancerrightnow #braintumourwarriors
Trying to put my life back together after #MelvintheMedulloblastoma - studying and planning on being back at work in Feb after 16 months off, then BAM I'm back, stuck at home all week after having a seizure last weekend. Other people's bucket lists are to have some amazing adventure, ride a hot air balloon, see the world etc but all I want is to achieve my degree and work to make a difference for other people, and unfortunately, doing all that requires me to be well! I'm not feeling sorry for myself, just frustrated that I am trying to move on and yet again, something outwith my control is being thrust in the way! I merely existed and survived until now and think it's time to thrive 💪🏻 A new tumour wouldn't be big enough to be causing this new problem but I have to wait until (maybe) Monday to get the results of my scan so I'm trying to think about all the glitter I'm going to put on my 'I Made it to 25!' birthday cake. ✨✨ #lifeaftercancer #braintumourwarriors
